I didn’t think I would have to write in my logbook again after the 2-week lockdown implemented by the government had concluded, so I had to take a day off to regroup when they prolonged the lockdown with 2 more weeks.
Since the amount of cases seem to be contained, I was certain that the lockdown would be lifted, or at least replaced by a much less severe shelter-in-place directive. It is what it is. At first I fumed and ranted at the TV screen, the Prime Minister receiving the brunt of my insults. But then I realized that I was behaving like a petulant child. This wasn’t a personal affront to my freedom; I wasn’t being punished. This was an all-out war against the Corona virus and drastic measures needed to be taken to safeguard our community. It hurt, it sucked, but it didn’t compare to the suffering other countries were going through and which was exactly what our government was trying to prevent from happening here.
It was time to ‘man-up’ and do my part to keep everyone safe instead of whining about mundane matters that are inconsequential in the big picture. So, I’ve decided to stop complaining. It doesn’t mean that from now on everything is going to be easy, or that I will no longer feel claustrophobic sitting at home. It just means that I’m not going to fight it or complain about it. All my emotions are free to wash over me and do their thing, but in the end I’m still going to be sitting at home as instructed by our Prime Minister, dealing with the ups and downs just like everyone else and count my blessings that I have a roof over my head to lockdown in.
There are other things pressing on my mind of course. I worry about my kids and what’s going to happen to their academic year. I worry that I might not have an income by the end of the month. I worry how our economy in general is going to survive this pandemic. These are all issues that will have to be dealt with sooner or later, but for now, none is more important than keeping my loved ones safe. If staying home for another couple of weeks is what it takes to guarantee their safety, then it will be worth it. Their life is more precious to me than my freedom…hopefully I’ll feel the same way in two weeks!
I’m not sure that I still have the energy to keep up this logbook on a daily basis, but I will try to at least write regular entries to keep you informed and keep me busy!
Be safe everyone.